I ♥ Hello Kitty

♥ Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I ♥ Hello Kitty

Hi, today i realised that bad stuff comes all at once, but good stuff still will happen after a bad day (: i met cheryl on the way home today yay, major coincidence :D happy happy! :D she have to put braces for 4 yrs leh omgosh, why so long, very pain leh owwie. Then after i reached interchange the bus came yay, no need to wait very long :D then in the lift i met a kind kind neighbour :D kay thats the good things that happen, oh and jolene helped me to buy drink, yay i got drink :D hahaa everytime i eat so slow then dont get to buy water :D

Okay, bad stuff? This dumbdumb teacher scold us twice in the library , say we talk too loud, BLEAH, we discussing stuff luhhh plus like i care about her and we deduce that she have menopause :O lol, even the librarian never tell us to shuddup , i think she kaypoh la hor, nothing better to do BLEAHH, then ask us is from what class, then her hearing abit bad la hor, wateva la sheeee.

Oh yeah, and i have learnt that everyone have their own different set of principles , like even if you dont find this thing offensive, other people will lor, then they buay song you, so hor, i must respect their principles even if i dont think the same way, so everybody!! cheer up!! is just her thinking is different from ours okay? we not happy with her also not like got use lidat la hor, she want things her way leave her be, we'll do things our way too. even though we feel like we give in alot, maybe she thinks that she gave in alot too la, but not in our point of view, so its okay, everybody thinks differently. we'll just dont insult her way of doing things, just leave her and her thinking alone. maybe she try to make us understand her difficulty also very hard for us to understand, same as how we cant seem to get through our thoughts to her, should be the same la hor. i know, we tend to think like, if i put you on first priority, then she ought to put us at first priority also, but everybody got their own la hor, cant force her to think same as us. (: cheeeer up , let her spoil our mood have no use. if she thinks that she have done alot then we leave her be, her own way of doing things, we dont have to interfere..sorry if im evil T^T

okayyyyyyy rantings done, i just feel that i should try to understand her way to thinking even if its not the same as mine. I dont have to necessarily adopt her pov but i'll try to understand (:

bye, im feeling way better now :D CNA GROUP 4 FTWWW~~~

and ILOVECHEEZE, AND CHERRY AW :D HEHEHEH :D

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♥ Thursday, July 8, 2010

I ♥ Hello Kitty

hi :D actually im not in a particulary good mood today ): i feel like i very bad and im super guilty over something ): geezzz. shoo some bad emothions away please -.-

PURPLE COLOOURRRRRRRRRRR!!!! cheeeeeer up!!! -.- nehimnd. TODAY GOT AIRCON IN MY CLASS~WHOOOOO~ AND I FINISH MY UBD MODELS~~~LALALA :D WHEEEEEE~I GOT AN AWESOME GROUP~

ah wadeva, doesnt help really -.- MAYBE im just sleepy.

i keep spacing out today. damnnnnn. then when i come of of the blur state, i realised i have been spacing out with my hands on my head. really dumb. and dont mind my blabbers cos im in a bad bad mood, i think my face really black today, except when im smling at people. nehmind i think im talking rubbish -.- .

Because i dont even deserve your forgiveness. Even if you forgive me i cannot forgive myself. I really dontknow what to do howw.

The fb social interview. i saw one before that asked if you would give up someone you love for your friend. some said no, but i will say yes. i treasure friendship wayyyyy more than some love stuff because i think that it brings more pain than good :O

Im sorry because i dontknow myself that i hurt so many people. i want to apologize but it happened really long ago. i think you already forgiven me but i will never ever be able to forgive myself. no matter how long ago it happened i still feel really guilty and i will never forgive myself for hurting you. and not only you , there are even alot of other people too, i hurt unknowingly. i know they didnt forgive me like you did. i try to forget but also cannot so howw. ):

DONT fall for anyone. I'd rather be some hateful asshole than let anyone fall.

im not as strong as i look. if i say that i cry every single day, just that no one knows, not like anybody will believe me. i smile like i dont mind, but sometimes you go overboard and i really wanna burst already. even if i cry in class, not like anyone gives a damn what. cry, spaceout, sad, no one cares anyway.

This world is way too realistic. if you have slighty more feelings, more sympathy, more humanity then other people , you lose out. therefore, all of us will learn to harden and hide the feelings, or ignore it. something that happened today, but not to me:

A and B are desk partners. during one lesson , there was notes, that required us to fill in some things. A took out her notes and just copied normally. but B didnt know suppose to copy on notes so she copy on foolscp the WHOLE THING. tiring. and A didnt tell her suppose to copy on notes.

Another example is, when people see you in trouble. they LAUGH at you, and not help you. this totally sucks can.

EH YOU BLOODY FKER, LIKE I CAN STAND YOU ANYMORE. DAMN YOU. FKING RACIST.YOU THINK YOU ALWAYS RIGHT SUMMORE, AND LIKE 90% OF THE TIME YOURE WRONG AND MISLEAD ME HOR. AND THEN YOU SCOLD ME FOR SAYING THE RIGHT THING, AND DONT EVEN APOLOGIZE WHEN YOU REALISED YOU BLAME ME WRONGLY HUH.WALAO EH.I DAMN WANNA PUNCH YOUR ASFACE CAN _|_

OH WELLZ , I JUST CHANNELED MY SADNESS INTO ANGER, AND ANGER DISAPPEARS FASTER, SO GOOD. IM FEELING WAYYYYY BETTER NOW THAN JUST NOW. :D BYE~

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